I have no words today. The words have died.

So I'll make a list instead:

Study for Midterm

See Professors

Talk to old French professor

Study for Classes

Write 5 Page Papers

Read for English

Memorize Glyphs

Write for Fiction

Do Math Homework

Sleep

- Pass my freaking classes

Sometimes I wish I went to Evergreen State College. They learn. They don't have marks of distinction. They don't put pressure on students to do anything but learn. Maybe there or Hampshire College. Somewhere even more liberal than Brown.

I hate feeling as though my life is determined by my GPA. I don't care about it anymore. Success is not something that is measured by numbers, or at least it shouldn't be. I hate feeling like I'm just another number. I need to focus. Maybe I need adderall? Maybe I just need some sleep? Maybe I need to not be taking Math and Psych and Anthro? Because I don't really care about them. Maybe I need to get my priorities straight? I need to get my priorities straight.

At least I'm growing as a person and a friend. I'm trying to grow into somebody that I can be proud of. At least I'm growing.