Unsure

I'm not sure where Aiden is going. I can't say that I can't continue. Because I can. I'm very curious to see where is life is going to lead him. Michelangelo once said that, "every block of stone has a statue inside and it is the task of the sculptor to discover it." I think its a similar situation for the writer. There's always a story there. I suppose on every piece of paper there is a story to be written and it's the task of the writer to uncover it. However, I think that writers tend to have a different mindset. I could be wrong. I'm probably wrong. But I do think that writers tend to think that its actually their work, that it's their genius, and to an extent it is, but a lot of it has already been there, it's just been their job to uncover it. I'm not sure if I'm making sense, but why should that matter? I'm uncovering what was always supposed to be there, aren't I? And if I'm not then how is this coming into being? I can't possibly support the notion that it's all me, that it's all my mind, that it's all my thoughts. I think this is how the muses came into being...the greeks had something there, divine inspiration, forces that make work more creative, authentic, inspiring. I don't necessarily think that there are actual beings that make this happen. I just think there's something else. Something in the mind that is constantly untapped, that releases something, that recalls things that inspired you and made you stop and think and brings them to the for front that brings them forward and is released in your work. I just don't know. But I refuse to believe that everything I do is my own.

Back to Aiden. I really do like him. I really do like the story. I need to make some edits for flow and clarity, but overall I'm very proud of it. He's a cool kid. He's just lost, like me. Maybe that's where some of my fear has come from of continuing, because I might find a bit of myself. That sounds like it would be nice. Like I should strive for that. But I'm a little afraid, because I'm afraid of what I might discover. I'm going to try to come to terms with this and make more progress in my work.

This post is sporadic. I like it. I like eccentricity. I like different. I like giraffes.