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For the first time in a really long time I'm actually really happy. I don't know how this happened. I don't know why. It may have been some point during my all nighter when I realized (again) that everything was fine. I don't have to reach for perfection. I just have to give everything I have to everything I do. I have to try. & if I come short, well hell. But life is so much better not that I'm in this mind set, in this state.

I've also been flirting with someone, which helps. We'll see how things go, but I'd really like for them to work out.