I already mention how I came out to her last night/ this morning...after the Ke$ha concert, which was pretty effing fantastic. But I didn't delve any deeper and I should have. I'm only going to graze the surface here, but that's as far as I want to go at this point. I still need to get my head around everything. However, one of the most stressful, scary, intimidating things I will ever have to do in my life is done, it's in the past, it's incredible. She was/is very supportive and said that she loves me no matter who I love. She is my hero. She is the person I always have and always will look up to. She has been the greatest role model I could ask for and she's just an all around bad ass. I don't know where I'd be or who I'd be without her. I'm very grateful towards her. I can't wait to see her in just a little over a month.
I'm procrastinating again. I really shouldn't do that. But....oh well. I was supposed to have so much completed by 5 today, that has not gotten done. Other things have. I believe. But I really need to focus. I'm almost certain I'll be pulling an all-nighter simply because I know that I would sleep in and not get any work done tomorrow. This way I can stay up as late as I need to. Sleep. Wake up by 4. Get to class. Get done with class & get back to work. I don't think I'll need the all nighter, honestly, but I would accomplish so much!
*sigh*
My heart grows heavy sometimes.
I always think I know what I want, but I have no idea. I'm certain that I'll be content with everything at some point in my life or even some point soon. I just need to make sure that I'm secure. That I am set for this semester in all of my classes. I need to do well in all of them. Like actually though. It's of the upmost importance. I need to talk to a few of my professors. I need to talk to an old professor. I need to be better. I'm not. I need to be better. I'm not.
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